the past , present and the future

sometimes its terrible and sad when i think back what i used to have , and what i got now . got 3 papers failed last sem and hell i have to make sure i wont fail any more in the coming exam but the shit is i know nothing yet , its 4.30am now i cant finish my assignment cause i don know how to draw something names PLC ladder diagram ... when u lost something , its time to get yourself something better back am i right ? for example i fucked up my last exam , means i got chance to study kaw2 on the 3 months holiday after chinese new year and score them A to pull up my CGPA which is 1.8 for now , damn... i have a lot to learn , once u get older , the more u can see ...when u are not a kid anymore then its time for u to see the ugly side of human being , u wanna be a lonely or mix in the dark side of human , im standing on the grey ... many things , just like a car .. u wan it to be super stable like a kart on the road and u lowered it like 10 cm from the ground to the chassis , the comfortabality drop to negative while u gain super handling , i can hear my sumpguard grinding the hump everytime i drove over them , the grey side means jack up the car for 1.5 more cm and everything is cool and i can race with toyota ke70 my classmate going to hook me up with ... everything need to be balance , i got myself a damn good guitar effect which is more high level then my skill and this happen , i just play with the effect more than upgrading my skills , although that is fun but i will end up a fuck . please yeoh , appreciate what u have now , watch your future ( 3 years more to go since we all gonna die in 2012 ) ... u going to die if u keep living like a rock(motionless) ..hell yeah im going infront ... once gone no need to think back right ? i didnt mean the cutie face girl i used to msn with for the past few years ok . and fuck thomad sleep at my bed just now makes my smelly bed even smelly , guys we have to choose songs for the final man kotak hitam go go , we don have to win but at least pawn the gay bands in tar college (this is future cause we got few days to go before final) .