emo yah

again emo , such a great and good feeling ...
last 2 night , i dreamed about her , she was at my granpa house , old , wooden wall , with cement floor ... she was really tired , just lying on the cushion .. and i was keep asking her " hey...tired ah ? sleep lah sleep lah " and when i woke up in 8am something ... i found that im the one feeling tired ...for me , having a good dream is very cruel , when i woke up in cold , yes ... my guitars and guitar amp are still there , im sure that my car is still parked downstair , but i felt cold , so empty and void , how come god gave me a sweet dream ? what was so sweet ? just because im so near to her like 1 feet away , and just because i have to chance to talk to her , and she did listen to me ... have u ever send a message to her , and was doing something else , like playing stupid games , lying on bed , playing the same song on your guitar while waiting for her reply ? and when your phone vibrate , not enuf time to ring , u already take your phone and quickly open the message to see what she send to u ? and so disappointed , found that her name is not written in your phone ... but 28222 or hotlink ? it just fucking dissapointed and when u go to find your housemate , watching him play F1 computer game hoping that the time will pass faster and she will notice your stupid message and finish busying doing her work and reply u ? yah this is what always happen to me ... it feels so good man ..really , im enjoying those problem and feelings... cause its not about my family members , and im still living in a very good way , i don have to be hungry , and suffer from pain ( psyically ) <-----sorry i cant remember how it spelled .... don know why and when , im starting to love this feeling... its so fucking amazing cause u use your brain to think and when emo feels come... the pain is not in your head but inside your chest , the sour feeling around the heart ... its like my heart crying and screaming inside , lying on bed with my phone waiting for a message is my daily activity nowadays .. i wanna scream out loudly , i've scream few times ago and it was so cool cause my housemate edwin can hear it ... means that it was real loud .. after being real emo like 20 times , im starting to like it , i like to stay alone in my room , not listening to music sometimes... just lying on my bed and day dreaming ... time , place , weather , background music , colour ... and that girl , i hope that she is not pretty , i hope that she don look so cute and gorjes , i hope that she don have that sexy legs , i hope that she don have that pretty eyes , i hope that her voice is not that soul tarikan strong... then , her eye sight will be lower as im not so tall , as what i wan is her... not her body , u know i fucking like to chat with her , interesting ... if u ask me "what do u wan actually bro ? " im going to answer that with "id on wan anything .. im just going to keep trying and keep enjoying the emo feeling myself " ... thats me ... yay my heart feel sour im so happy now... going to sleep with sour feeling... i hope i dream again tonight , same place , same time , same colour , same sound , and same person .

by
yeoh the beginner screamer